Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in jenpsw's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
9:08 pm	"I really believe that if there's any kind of God, he wouldn't be in any one of us -- not you, not me, but just this space in between. If there's some magic in this world, it must be in the attempt of understanding someone else, sharing something. Even if it's almost impossible to succeed, but who cares, the answer must be in the attempt." you gotta love before sunset. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
8:33 pm	no time to update. wait thats an excuse. i didnt feel like updating. "think of it liek this, jump ahead, 10, 20 years. and you're married, but then your marriage doesnt have the same energy that it used to have, you start to think about all those guys you've met in your life. and you start to think, 'what might have happened if you picked up with one of them.'" watch before sunrise and before sunset. great movies. romantic. (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 30th, 2005
11:04 pm	so i did a tentative schedule for next yr. this is it: mon-10am bio, 130-430 bio lab OR 2-5 chem lab (they alternate from week to week) tues-10am calculus, 12-chem wed-10am bio, 12-2 sociology, 5pm-bio tutorial, 6-8 psychology thurs-10am calculus, 12 chem, 2 chem tutorial fri- 10am calculus, 12 chem wednesday is an absolute nightmare. they only offer two time slots for psychology and the other one doesnt fit into my schedule cause of my math and bio and chem. well, i coulda taken another calculus section, but nooooooooo way am i doing calculus for 2 hours straight every friday afternoon. i dont think i can handle two full hours of calculus lectures. got my tcard today (finally) its....decent. my hair looks like i grew a lump near the back of my head. nice smile anyways (i'm hot bitches! hahaha jk). for the past school yr, i worked my ass off to get bethune certified as an ecoschool..and yay! we got the Gold Level! isnt that grand? tomorrow's trip should be interesting...i cant wait to see michelle's reaction hahaha. oh, i went shopping with shalini today agyer my ut adventure (admissions and awards office ladies are nasty and bitchy, and i thought bethune's guidance is bad!) and i got myself a boho-inspired top and skirt. very cheap too. my philosopy for trends is that you should never spend too much cause they change too quickly. buy a piece or two and coordinate your clothes around it. make it work. but make it timeless too. make it your own. very important. ok, i'm off to shower then to see american psycho. more christian bale nudity. LOL. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 29th, 2005
8:11 pm	music: mr. brightside - the killers once again, i didnt go downtown to get my tcard. shall do tomorrow...for real! painted the hallway today, post pic of it later if i feel like it. go to photobucket and searched for sonic200 ...bunch of pics from the past month or so. oh yeah, now that i am listening to the killers....i remember how i "discovered" them. i was suppose to be studying i think for my biology isu exam. anyways, in december, i killed myself by sleeping at around 9 and wake up at 3 in the morning to study and work. well, at around liek 5, i saw the video,...thought it as cool cause i liked the movie moulin rouge. anyways, they played it like a zillion of times for the next 2 hours....and i figured, "yo, the lead singer is cute...the song is so darn catchy." so i started to like them. hahaha. after the last day of school before the xmas break, i bussed down to walmart to get their cd. awesome crap. :D i'm convinced, metro-ism is totally hot. :D more guys need to explore this side of them... :o :o :o http://www.southflorida.com/movies/sfl-igwnwcpsig9jun20,0,4259924.story?coll=sfe-movies-headlines ANOTHER BATMAN MOVIE WITH CHRISTIAN BALE. AWESOME STUFF. hahaha, quote: "[Holmes] won't be in the sequel ... the next romantic interest will be a much stronger actress." like me. :D (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
11:55 pm	music: combat baby - metric today was alrightttttt, stayed at home all day. i woke up at (new record! the latest ive slept in so far) at around 920-ish. mom made soup already and i had some of that stuff along with the chinese version of fettucine alfredo - aka, pasta with cream of mushroom, good stuff anyways. so i finally finished cleanign up my room. i didnt realized it was this big until...well, i knew, but didnt see all this space since i moved into the room 2 summers ago. i threw out all my gr 9, 10 and 11 notes except for some pretty cool assignments i did and the maths. i threw out all my old cosmogirl magazines too. ive been buying it since the 2nd issue...so i had a lot. thinking about it, its such a waste of money buying magazine. ok, next yr, when i'll become a (even) cheaper asshole, i'll go to the libray and read newspaper and magazines there to save money. so much to look forward to eh. i took a little break at around 1 to watch A Midnight Summer's Dream, obviously starring Christian Bale. it was fun....funny movie, good cast...and yes, it's not a modern version so they speak Shakespeare. more cleanup then dinner than cleanup...finished at like 9. took the whole freaking day. oh well. so i will go to uot tomorrow to get my registation stuff. exciting. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 27th, 2005
8:15 pm	CHRISTINE YOU BETTER READ THIS. guess what i found out? there is a "Batman vs. Superman" script and Batman will kick Superman's ass. :D (4 Comments |Comment on this)
6:25 pm	music: stills - lola its 34 degrees outside and i'm indoors with AC, having a hot mocha. this is too cool (no pun intended :p). i just had some mashed potatoes and gravy. goodness. hahaha. so my highschool career is finally over. i cannot believe it. today was...not that special nor was it sad. i dont know, its just one of those days where you're trying to cherish the memories but yet the day just...floats by. but i guess i am glad its over. anyways, i have a feeling that somethign pretty important will happen during my coop placement. :p we'll see. should be interesting anyways. i'm going to get my Tcard for u of t tomorrow. should be interesting. i just saw equilibrium starring, very surprisingly, christian bale. it was very matrix-sy. but then...i liek ti just as much. anyways, rbought up some pretty interestign idea.s how the gov't brainwash the general population into believing that comformity comes along a just and peaceful society. that differences results in conflicts, etc etc. that is, in my opinion, bullshit. ok, enough for now. dont feel like writing anymore. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 26th, 2005
11:52 pm	just came back from alexandra's 18th birthday (legal! legal!), still feeling full...pizza was surprisingly good even from pizza pizza. the hawaiian was gooodddddddddddd. anyways, we saw hitch (ive seen it before, but oh well) and let me tell you, will smith was perfect for that role. he is so smootthhhhhhhhhh. pretty entertaining movie nonetheless. eva mendus (?) is gorgeous. tho her hair kinda bugs me. lxe seemed to like her presents hehe. anyways, work was boring again today, tho time went by slightly faster than yesterday, otherwise....boring and shitty and blah. it was so hot in the place, i was sweating like a horse! the owner is so cheap...now that there are more (and better) grocery stores opened near by, he must stay "competitive." and to him, this is by cutting down ppl's hours, making sure little things are done, and making us stay OT for an hour at a time. this is getting ridiculous. this is why i hate businesses, its too money driven. WAY TOO MUCH. i hate the way cooperations are operated. so corrupted. i'm convinced, i'll meet a nice guy at coop. haha, i cant believe what my mom said about my coop placement at scar. general hospital, "jenny, you'll meet doctors." and the way she said it...she was tryign ti imply that ...i will "meet" future prospects and that most of them are well educated and are good catches. but wtf? they are like..pretty good for me. but then, you never know if someone is so smart that they finished med school by their mid twenties. i wish. :D doctors are hot. ok, i'm brain dead. night. (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 25th, 2005
8:20 pm	shopping shopping shopping! yay, i spent 60 bucks ytoday at fairview..but but but about half of it was on bus tickets for me later (coop). i got a pair of flip flops (still want the nice flats ones...cant really describe) a shirt, pants, a toothpaste, lots of jewelery etc etc etc. i'm thinking about dyeing my hair...and brown highlights. but then i'm scared it might look flobby. but then again, i dont think it'll look nice period. its too hotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt. so nasty and sweaty. omg, its making my arm really itchy and i'm getting a rash! stupid heatttttttttttt. i'm braindead already/ but jamie oliver's school dinners in 30 minutes. havent been so "in touch" with tv shows until now. haha, and its for the foodnetwork. oh, i hate working. its so boring and dull. i'm too qualified for a cashier at NO FRILLS. this blows. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
7:32 pm	oh, conveniently, there was an old christian bale movie at the library and omg, he is pretty buff in every movie. ok, if you know me, you know that i liek the skater built: not buff, but...skinnier? you know what i mean, as long as there no beer belly or nasty man boobies. cause no, i dont want to know that you wear a b cup :p OHHH, ms. carr gave me the bracelet for 30 hr famine cause i raised more than 90 bucks (yay me, i fed 3 kids for a month, or a kid for 3 months..or..). its so cute. its kinda a hemp bracelet, but made with this thick thread...in nude tones. i have this thing for purple and nude tones nowadays. of course, not together (well, might work). LOL, i just googled image search for christian bale and they showed me a pic of him in the shower in one of the scenes in american pyscho. hm, i'm not enjoying the scene cause i dont care :p its (so vain, but hey, be honest ok?) all about the face and the hair. oh, and the voice. the hair, i have to be able to mess around with. i loev playing with guy's hairs. (hahaha, so i suppose no bald dudes for me!). ok, that pic is extremely distrubing, but here's one for you to enjoy :p http://www.thezreview.co.uk/images3/batman02.jpg hehe, thank god in this batman, he didnt have a cup for his suit...or nipples. who really wants to see that? (7 Comments |Comment on this)
6:51 pm	music: yellow - coldplay only made the account to make "1 comment per entry" due to the DEMANDS from christine. so much torture. LJ has the shittest layouts you can pick from. ahhhh, probabaly will write entries, if ppl actually read them. cause i dont like to write without a purpose. so today, after going to the B.E.A.T. *bethune environmental action team* exec meeting...ms. tutchener brought all sorts of organic treats. vegan cheese is the nastest thing ive ever had. ok, todu cream cheese was good, but THAT POWDERY cheddar....crap was....crap. the moment i took a bite, i regret taking the smallest piece anyone can cut. i did some butterfly garden weeding, and near the end, i was the only one working...the rest of the guys and gals sat under the tree shade...and was watching me work my ass off. then patty said, "jenny, you know you dont have to do any of that." what timing, we wrapped up right after she said that. afterwards, ms. t made me take most of the leftover treats home, she even wanted me to take the one organic banana left back home. i already took the blue corn tortilla chips and awesome gorment crackers...i felt so bad, so i didnt take the banana :p i cant believe hs is officially over. it has been too kind. before coming to bethune, i would have never thought that i can become a *good* student. i still remember getting 4 out of 50 on the whales unit test in gr 4. how embarrassing. michelle (who, beat me by one mark) hugged each other and cried....while laughing our butts off. i guess i worked hard too...but it is soooo worth it. i hate the place, but i love the place...its definitely a love-hate relationship. ok wait, let me correct that, i love the ppl, i hate the place. but oh well, i guess at some point, friendship must take a test and only the good ones will last. we shall see after university. it would be fun to go to bethune's 50th anniversary. 25 years from now, seeing the "immature" guys settle down, with kids...or whatever. (imagine timothy shun with kids that have the same "hehe" laugh) haha. or me settled down. oh that brings up another thought. i find it sad that i continually think about meeting the "one" its such a soap, but ahhh, where is heeeeeeee, where is my prince charmingggggggggggggggggg. i find the need to be swept away, cause no guy has truly done that yet. seeing two ppl in love makes me jealous to some point. i want to have that feeling where you would wake up in the middle of the night and look across the bed, and see someone that truly makes you happy. and you're wondering if you make them feel the same way. someone you are willing to go through the depths of hell so you can bring them back. i guess i have to urge to feel...needed, and to be protected by someone. omg, this is so imposed by the media. i want someone to take the bullet for me! :p althought we're surrounded by ppl that love us (for who we are) already, we *still* want to find that someone special. well, its true that we're greedy (well, not reallyyy, i'm only looking for *one* person haha). i just want to be happy in the end. i want a great husband that is faithful (omg, how can a husband be good without being faithful, i'm so retarded), and someone that will take me and the kids out for a picnic so we can play a fun game of football (this is so cheesy). i'm saying all this bullshit when i dont even have a full grasp of my place in this world. maybe we dont really have a place in this world, maybe we're just suppose to live through it, somehow, survive the devil forces that reside on this planet. *sigh* (2 Comments |Comment on this)